Baby Blues

It is no secret that the thing I want most is a baby. This time of the year it is very hard for me. Seems that I am surrounded by pregnant women, and Mothers day is coming up. I have my good days and my bad. Lately, a lot more bad than good. The last couple of years we have had so many babies born in our church. Sometimes it is hard for me to watch. I love all of my dear friends and am always happy for them when I hear the news. Envy and jealousy do come into play, but I would never be mad that someone else is pregnant.

Sometimes I do feel that people treat me different. Like if they tell me they are pregnant I will break. The only thing that hurts my feelings is that they feel they cant tell me. I feel I am the last to know.

I know that I am not physically fit to take care of a baby right now, and in Gods timing I will have one. Please pray for me to have patience in the matter. I know this isn't about weight loss, but losing weight, getting healthy, and having a baby all tie in together for me. And if you are reading this and are pregnant, please do not take this the wrong way. I love every one of you very much and am happy for all of you, but this blog is about me being open about EVERYTHING, and I felt that I needed to get this off of my chest.